It's before midnight, so this still counts. Today I had a riding lesson this morning, went from there to work, went from work to home and got changed, went to the International Festival in Lorain with a friend, came home, got a shower, listened to my dad talk for about 20 minutes, and now I'm going to bed.

Goodnight, world!

Not the happiest day today. One of the employees at my job got fired. She knew it was coming, we all knew it was coming. My manager was such a jerk about it though. She made this huge stupid announcement "You all know that she had to bring her numbers up to avoid being fired. Well, she didn't. So this is her last day. Goodbye, associate." Yeah, this is with everyone there INCLUDING fired girl. So stupid. Stupid stupid stupid.

That's it. I'm starting my own business so I don't have to worry about dealing with people like her.

Yeah, so there was some drama. And then, she was on me because I was scheduled for afternoons tomorrow, and she wanted me to come in in the morning but I already set a riding lesson for tomorrow morning. Umm, yeah sorry, no. It was her fault for not scheduling properly, because it was like this for weeks. And um yeah, I'm going to plan things on my days off and off times, and excuse me for not being willing to drop everything every single time she doesn't watch the schedule. The problem is, I've done it many many times without a thank you, and everyone does it, so I was the bad guy today for saying no. I'm probably going to get fired next.

Hmm... was late out the door again today, despite getting up 30 minutes earlier than I did yesterday. It's hopeless.

My sister gave my cat one treat, and he looked at her as though she was nuts. I'm reminded of this because my cat just lept onto my laptop to get my attention, with the bag of treats in his mouth. That's all I'm good for aparently. I'm a glorified kitty Pez dispenser.

I want to go canoeing this summer, but no one wants to go. It's kind of a 2+ person trip.

Umm...we got LOTS of thunderstorms today, but sadly I spent most of the day inside.

Well, that's about it. Later gators!

The bad thing about setting goals is that I can't set 500 goals. So I set maybe two or three at the beginning of the week, and halfway through the week I realize I forgot to set an important goal. (Yes, my goal-setting is weird.) I guess I would call it intentions, rather than goal setting. See, I say something like, "This week I shall be 5 minutes early everywhere I go." and so it happens. But it only works at the beginning of the week. If on Wednesday, I realize I've been rushing to get to work on time and it's because this week my intentions were to "Update my journal nightly." "Water and weed the garden daily." and "Do really well at my riding lessons." it's too late to set a new intention. And like I said, two or three is the max I can do. Maybe next week I'll try to be early, finish all my homework for the following week, and pack lunches.

Speaking of food, I'm starving. I have had no appetite for days, and now I'm SO hungry! I don't know why, either. It's weird. I really couldn't eat anything today, and now I think I'm going to eat a five course meal.

I wish I had another day off this week. Not until next week do I get a day off, and with everything I'm cramming into each day, it's been insane. Next week will be SO slow. I read my horoscope and laughed out loud today. It went something like: I've been doing a lot, I'm probably tired, I shouldn't take on anything more, and maybe I should cut back. Hilarious. Because it's SO TRUE . Not in a bad way, though. I'm getting a lot done, which is awesome.

Okay, off to get dinner. Later!

I am an updating FIEND! lol

And yes, I already used the word "FIEND" today. But it warranted another use.

Anyway, busy busy busy here. As usual. I made dinner- barbecue flavored fried tofu, and some Asian curry-coconut bean noodles thing, that was actually pretty good, considering the fiasco going into creating it.

My face is breaking out AGAIN. I think it's because I sweat or maybe it's all the dirt I collect at the barn. I go home and wash my face, but, like yesterday, I spent 5.5 hours out there, so it sat for awhile. And yeah it was awesome. I did hay and water, and then had my lesson, and then went back and picked the stalls and gave water again, and then had an hour and a half group horsemanship lesson. Well, groundwork. I felt so bad for this one girl...she stayed and talked the entire time I was feeding hay up until my lesson, and then came back for groundwork, and the horse that she's leasing is spirited, to say the least. He needs a lot of work, apparently. She ended up having to leave him cross-tied and use one of the schools horses to practice on. Yeah, I would have been petrified if my horse had come at me when I was doing the backing up exercise.

Okay, so I still have a bunch to do and it's after 11. Uggh, I think bed is going to be later than I had hoped. Oh well. Later...

My goal for this week is to get in the habit of updating this daily. I'm just pulled too many directions on the internet it seems, and after hours of writing, all I can think is "uuhhhhh....".

Let's see... busy summer, so far. I've started feeding hay and water and picking stalls in the afternoons after my Monday riding lessons, and in return I'm getting an extra lesson each week. It's so great! I get to hang out with horses more each week, but at the same time, all my free time is pretty much gone. Oh well. My riding is getting better. I love it so much. I keep learning new things...and it's a lot of hard work. I sometimes feel a little overwhelmed, like my brain can't go in that many directions at once. It's getting better. My 2-point is SO much better, and I've been working on rising trot. I'm still not there yet, but maybe by the end of July I'll be close....

Um, yeah, classes. All right.

I've been sewing too. Right now I'm working on an 1860's ballgown for the Bonanza Convention. I have some finishing touches, and then I'm waiting for my other patterns to arrive to finish the undergarments and start on the next project. I love it... I think the dress is turning out really well. I'll post a picture when I'm done.

I just finished the final edits on my most recent fanfic, and I posted that yesterday. I like it, and I always hope other people do, too. It's one thing to just write for yourself, and say "heck with everyone else", but I write what I like, and then try to make it so other people will too. I have three more variations on my theme, and then I'm out of ideas, lol. At least they should appeal to people who like those stories. I just read one that someone was talking about on the forum awhile ago, and I was so dissapointed. First of all, it took me forever to find it. (My search engine brain functions must have been rusty, because after I found it I realized I should have found it long ago). And then it was a medium length story, so it took me a couple hours I think to read it. All I know is I went to bed at 1:30 last night, which was too late. But it just seemed as though the writer wanted to write a certain story, and then just twisted everything around to tell that story. What was left made no sense because it was so out of character for everyone else. And then everything that happened in the ending just happened to happen...there was no logical progression. Maybe I'm bad, because one thing that drove me nuts was the lack of dialogue. Perhaps I use too much dialogue in mine, lol.

Anyway, that was a big long rant partially because I'm a little sleep deprived to due staying awake to read the story and also because I didn't sleep very well.

Work...is. Work. What can I say? It pays for school with leftover money for my riding lessons, so I can't complain too much.

Speaking of riding, it's about that time that I get ready to head out. I get to spend all day today in the barn (YAY!), first through feeding and watering horses, then my lesson, then cleaning, then a group lesson in groud work tonight. Should be fun.

Later!

I need to set aside a time each day to update this thing.

My summer classes just started, and I'm so excited! I'm taking meteorology. So awesome!

My room is put together (finally) so I can find things again.

I'm still a terrible procrastinator.

All right, I really am very very sleepy. I'm gonna climb into bed with a good movie.

Later...

It's been a wonderful week.

I was manager on duty at work this weekend, and we beat our goals so YAY! I love when that happens. I take credit for it, lol.

A girl at work gave me the Te of Piglet, and I am happily reading it. I love it so far. I'm about halfway through.

I'm beginning to think this moving-into-my-dads-house was a good thing. I have thrown away or given away SO MUCH STUFF in the last couple weeks, it's ridiculous. It's amazingly freeing. I don't have a lot of space, so I can't keep much, and so it's forcing me to live simply and I love it.

I hung out with a friend today. I wish I could have had more time to hang out this weekend, but I have bills that need to be paid .

It's been amazing the last week; I've been making a huge effort, and it's starting to pay off. I hope it keeps up.

Well that's all. I really should have been in bed a few hours ago, but I was making plans for this weekend to go take some pictures and I lost track of the time.

Wishing the best for everyone...

I think I need a Kindle. Over a quarter of a million books and magazines, downloadable in 60 seconds. Maybe I'll save up for one and get it this summer. If only they had Marie Claire on there too....

So I took the final for my government class this morning. Yay, all done! His study guide WAS the test, so I'm pretty sure unless I misunderstood a question or something, I got 100% on it. Hooray for good memory.

Yesterday my brother came home from college, and today I decided my life is a sitcom. This morning, at 5:00am, an alarm went off, waking me up. Blearily, I stumbled into the dark kitchen and began to try to find the damn alarm amidst the boxes of his stuff. I was tossing aside XBox controllers, remotes, papers, clothes...and then the thing stopped. Ok. Well, no finding it if I don't know what I'm looking for. I stumble back into bed, still groggy. JUST as I'm about to fall asleep, the thing goes off again. Muttering some expletatives under my breath, I go back into the kitchen again, and fall over something and into the box of crap. The alarm stops. Again. Not dealing with this anymore, I pick up the box (that's as big as me), and stumble into the family room, where he's sleeping until we get a more permanent space, losing a sock in the process. I drop the box next to his head, and I say, "There's an alarm in here that keeps going off." He replies, "Snrrkkkk- oh, good morning." and falls back asleep. At that point, I was about ready to yell, "Good morning? Good MORNING?!?!?!" but I was too exhausted, so I stumbled back into bed, with only one sock, and slept for another 2 hours until I had to get up to go take my test.

And that was my brilliant morning. I'm gonna take a nap here in a little bit.

Before I go, I just wanted to say Happy Mother's day to all the moms out there.

My dad and brothers and sisters went to my mom's grave this morning, but I didn't. I still remember her telling me when I was about 12, and my dad was visiting his mom's grave every week, that I shouldn't feel bad for not not going and I shouldn't feel like I had to visit hers after she died. She said she never visited her dad's grave, because that brought back memories of his funeral, and she would rather remember the good times. That's about how I feel about it, and I don't feel bad for not going. It doesn't mean I don't still miss her or that I don't love her as much. I just prefer to remember the good times.