I am SO excited I have the Saturday after next off AND I'm not closing Friday which means I get to go to the moonlight Christmas ride at the Barn!! Yay!!!!

I am so tired tonight, and I have to open tomorrow so I should probably be in bed now. I wish that I could stay up until 4:00am writing, because I'm just in that kind of a mood. Sighhh...

I'll be good though and climb into bed with a history book.

I can't wait for the day that I don't dread the weekend. I've been working weekends for a long long time, well not THAT long but the majority of my working career, and I'm so tired of working weekends. I would love to have two days off in a row a week, every week, and the same two days off every week.

I guess I should go work on my homework so I can get closer to that goal.

à tout à l'heure!

The ad on the side of the page is making me laugh. It's for an online shopping website that searches other websites to find products. Anyway, the quote they have up there reads, "I found them and was looking forever!" (The bolding is theirs, too...) Wouldn't looking forever NOT be a good way to promote an online retail site? Lol...

So I downloaded the Shaun Cassidy collection from ITunes (I HATE ITunes, btw. Just thought I had to throw that out there. It just sucks that there's no other place really to find so many songs. And it sucks that I can't make an MP3 CD with them.) Anyway, once I had purchased that, it recommended Rex Smith and his album as something I would like, based on my listening. Well, that and a whole lot of other things. I may have to try it out and see. I love Rex Smith in the Pirates of Penzance movie that I have. Which, they need to release on DVD! VHS is not fun. Plus I'm afraid I'm going to wear it out eventually. Apparently Rex Smith is doing plays and appearances as well. I would love to see him sometime. I'm going to add that to my list of life goals. All right, enough about Rex Smith.

Slept in a little too much this morning, but that's all right I guess. My dad would say that I needed the sleep.

I think I'll take off now to ride my horsey, because I have to work later this afternoon, so that would give me plenty of time in between to get showered and things. And steal the washer from my dad so I can get the massive pile of laundry done.

You know, I guess my posts at 2 in the morning ARE more interesting, lol.

I am in HEAVEN this morning!! The last time I checked Itunes, they had no Shaun Cassidy, whatsoever. (Go ahead, I'll wait for you to laugh.) This morning, just to check again, I typed in "Shaun Cassidy" and discovered the SHAUN CASSIDY COLLECTION!!! 48 SONGS! Some of which I've never heard before!!!! This can totally replace my CD and my records, so that they refrain from getting further scratched. The sad thing is they won't all fit on a CD, so I can't listen to all of them in my car. I really need to get a CD player with an IPod attachment for my car.

Anyway, I was checking ITunes just as this page was loading, and I completely forgot what I was going to say.

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Well, I am amazed. It's been two hours since my computer crashed in the middle of writing the content above, and it's STILL there! I am beyond shocked.

And I need a new computer. This thing has been getting worse. My monitor has frozen about five times in the last two weeks, and then today it just completely went dead. Totally dead, just gone. I tried to turn it on, and then it shut off by itself again. I think I'm gonna get a desktop computer instead. I don't really NEED the laptop, really, for day to day stuff. I can just save it for the times that I travel. Infrequently, lol. Plus I want a bigger hard drive. Only having...hold on, let me look... 66GB sucks. Okay, that sounds like a lot. But, considering that I only have 17GB free right now, and I have 1.5GB in music and 2.5GB in pictures alone, and that's not even everything. I have a bunch of data DVDs and thumb drives with stuff on them as well. I really need more space. And a computer that doesn't crash if you look at it funny.

All right, that is all for the moment. I'm going to clean today, and finish up some sewing, and try to get things situated for the weekend because most of it will be spent working so I won't have a lot of time.

Later!

Uggh, I hate being so out of it. I am so tired right now, and I so should be in bed. Am I? No. Nope, not at all. My bed is still covered with about 50 things that I wanted to get down today, but as of now, I give up. I'm sweeping it all onto the floor, and going to sleep.

And now, because my brain has decided to beam back into my head, Holliday, when you said that I remembered a website from awhile back that has all these misheard lyrics. There's some pretty funny ones. I could probably create my own dictionary with mine, lol. AD, I wish I had been talking the whole night through! Well, not because of lack of sleep, but... yeah. It's like matches...some you strike and they never light, some spark a little and never light, some light but go out right away, and some burn your fingers. And that has nothing to do with anything really, because there's also about 6 other scenarios with matches. And none of them apply and I don't really know what my point was anymore. Hold on, let me read back.... oh yeah. Um, this all-night-talking turned out to be match scenario #2. Who knows though. Sometimes after it sparks and goes out, you can try later and it'll light. And sometimes you just give up. I guess if you really care enough about getting a working match, you'd try again and see if it was the one that would light the candle. Unless you really didn't care about that certain scent at the moment, and then you could wait. Ooh! There's this really pretty peppermint scent candle at work that I want to get... AND we have the peppermint coffee creamers! I don't drink coffee, but I bet they would be really good in hot chocolate. I love peppermint. I think I got a peppermint mocha today. I can't remember. Borders has a really good peppermint drink. Their cocoa trio is really really good too. Especially if you take the chocolate stick and drop it into the hot chocolate and let it melt. It turns into this gooey, melty mess when you finally reach the bottom of the drink, and it's SO GOOD! Everyone at my old job used to think it was so gross, but I don't think I ever tried it. I was thinking about taking them some cookies, but I really don't want to see the manager again, so I'd have to go on her day off and just drop them off. I'm sure they're all going nuts again, but NOT ME! No, I'm going to be conscious for Thanksgiving this year! I don't even remember Thanksgiving last year. I've yet to find the fake turkey stuff yet though, so I may just make Morning Star chick'n. I found some great recipes for veg stuff online that I want to try. Maybe I'll just make quinoa. Oh! That's why I'm hungry...I didn't eat yet tonight. Well, it's a bit late now, I'll probably just go to bed.

Wow, I just read that and I think I'll leave it. I've been trying really hard to write posts that make sense, but this one reflects my state of mind. I should try to post earlier than the moment when I'm at the peak of my exhaustion tipping into beyond tired.

I'm going to bed.

*Drums fingers together evilly*

I don't know why, I just did that just because. Lol.

So busy. I don't like being this busy. I need some downtime, too...

Not too much going on, I suppose. I had a ton that I thought about writing, but now I can't think of anything. Ummm... let's see. Oh, I may be getting promoted at work. He's going to "try me out" and see how I do at ordering and label making. It's between me and one other guy, apparently. Hey, I'm fine with whatever. If I don't get it, I'm still looking for something more permanent so I can get my horse in the spring. I was supposed to do my ride today, but I didn't. I'm going to go maybe tomorrow and for sure Friday.

I think that's about it. I'm going to go now and work on some curtains for the zimmer (what my dad calls the garage room). I found some awesome fabric. In fact, I'll post some pics when I'm done. The room looks directly into our neighbors kitchen, bathroom, and bedroom windows, so no one has privacy. All right, later!

I don't know which was more annoying... the talking bravenet lady, or the stupid commercials that play automatically. I wish there was a way to turn them off so they wouldn't just start playing. It's so annoying!

I am TIRED today! I got up at 4:00am to watch some meteors. I saw two. My dad was daydreaming and saw none. In his defense, he was still half asleep and cold. I slept in half my clothes, and I still had on my thermal long underwear from the barn, so I was toasty. It was pretty funny actually. We were out there for a couple minutes, and I saw the second one. I said, "Look! There! Look look look....(looking at my dad, and realizing he had been looking at the ground) awwwwww....... you missed it again!" My dad replies, "There was another one? Okay that's nice...well I'm ready to head in, how about you?"

Ever get lyrics messed up to songs? I do it ALL the time. I'll be singing along, and not even realize that I'm butchering the lyrics either. This morning I had to stop and think, "WAIT. 'Shorty is like an elephant in my head ' does not make ANY sense!" And this was after I had sang it that way for like ten minutes. Shorty can be a melody, but not an elephant. My sisters go nuts when I sing lyrics wrong, like there's some rule or something that says you have to know all the words before you're allowed to sing. Oh well.

Well, I gots to go! I have to do laundry and clean up the room a little and clean out the litter box. Marlon is using it again! Yay!!! I was dumb, and changed the litter without keeping any of the old stuff. I found this natural, biodegradable litter that's supposed to be pretty good, so I thought I'd try it. He finally used the box at about 9:00 last night, I think, after having it all day. Poor cat. And he's actually burying now. He hates touching stuff with his paws, and usually spends a few minutes wiping his feet on everything before he gets out of the box. This stuff was supposed to be softer and I was hoping it wouldn't bother his feet so much. We shall see...

All right, I must go. Later!!

AD, how could you tell!?!

Lol... what can I say... caffiene and sugar are an evil combination, lol.

Well, I just wanted to announce that this, ladies and gentlemen, is my 600th update. Isn't that so weird? I mean, that seems like a lot. I'm really gonna celebrate when I hit 1000, lol.

And, I am happy to report that crisis is fading, somewhat. After much thinking (and distraction, lol) I have come to the conclusion that doing things 100% is NOT FUN!!! Now, I'm sure that there are some people who are perfectly able to do it, but I have decided that I am not one of them. I am perfectly satisfied being a lactose-intolerant vegetarian who DOES drink milk and eat eggs sometimes, and avoids leather and fur and wool, but doesn't agonize over whether or not eating something that has cane sugar in is morally right because "what if" they used animal bones to sift the sugar. I still won't eat jello though. Never liked the stuff. And I hate rodeos but love zoos. I will definitely choose environmentally friendly alternatives to things, and still live simply, but stop beating myself up for wanting something that I don't *need* or enjoying a candle, because it's made of beeswax.

You know, if you go through life analyzing everything to death, and beating yourself up because "what-if" when no one really knows the answer why, it just makes things oh-so stressful and why go through life adding stress? And I am so happy that I came to this conclusion today, and I think part of the reason I came to this conclusion is because I told myself this morning that I'd better figure out an answer because I was kind of sick of the angst already. It worked.

All right, I better get some sleep. I'm getting up at four to check out the meteor shower. I'm probably going to freeze, and it's supposed to be cloudy and rainy. I want to see, anyway. Meteors are great.

It's been an up and down kind of day for me. On the one hand this, but on the other hand, that. This could be a good thing, but then again it might not be. I have good news and bad news. And all that jazz.

I should really be in bed, lol.

I've noticed that I've written my most dramatic, emotional stories when I'm having a personal crisis of some sort. My personal crisis right now is trying to find middle ground. Trying to decide where I want to be in the world, and how to give back more than what is taken. Or at the very least, break even. It's been bugging me all week. I'm too much of a "black and white" kind of a person, I think that's my problem. If it's wrong, it's wrong. It is. There is no "but". What I'm struggling with at the moment is "what is wrong?". Not in terms of doing harm to others, but in doing harm or good to the planet and to every living thing that inhabits it. Are the things here on earth meant to be used? Or taken care of and preserved? Where is the middle ground?

Just a teeny bit frustrating.

I have that stupid "Paparazzi" song stuck in my head. It's not even grammatically correct- she's ONE paparazzo, not a bunch of paparazzi. Unless she has multiple personalities. Then she could be "paparazzi". Maybe she does. Stupid song. I need some Cat Stevens or David Bowie or Korn to wipe it out of my memory. Oy.

All right, I just took a break to update and check email. Back to cleaning the room! Even though I should be sound asleep. But no, I'm cleaning and doing laundry. With cat-like tread. No sound at all...a fly's footfall could be distinctly heard. While all the household soundly sleeps...the pirates.... something something creeps. I forgot the lyrics!!!!! Okay, I'm sorry Bonanza season one, volume two, episode TWO on the disk. (I am NEVER going to finish the season before the next one is released, whenever that is...). Pirates of Penzance is going in. Rex Smith and Kevin Kline. Aahhhhhhhhhhhh!! 

Come friends, who plow the sea!!!