It was one of those kinds of days again, and all I wanted to do was come home and start looking for more jobs.

It doesn't help that I'm still feeling sick. I think I'm gonna try to get out early tomorrow. I'm not closing, so maybe I can just leave after my last appointment.

I'm just getting so tired of being put down all the time at work. There's just so far that you can go using your "personality" as an excuse for rudeness. There should never be an excuse for rudeness. Frank honesty? Fine. Rudeness- no. "Your black bean soup looks like poop! How can you eat that! It looks so disgusting!" is not frank honesty, it's downright rude. Especially when I didn't even ASK for an opinion about my soup!

Deep breath. Okay, better. I think I'll just feign being a lot sicker than I feel tomorrow, and I'll leave early.

Let's have some positive thoughts, everyone! I'll find a job that I'll love (or even just like a little) within the next two weeks, and I won't have to worry about this anymore. Our regional manager called today, and I answered, and she asked me if I was ready for Christmas, and told me just to get through it, it is what it is, and a bunch of other positive talk. (This is all stemming from last Christmas, when I had a whole week of crying on the floor behind the printer, so done with it all that I was ready to walk out.) I just said, "Oh, yes," to everything she said. This sucks, man. And everyone is still thinking I'm gonna be there in a month, and including me on decisions, and talking about how we're all going to get through Christmas together.

I still can't wait to leave, though.

All right, it's a little too late for me to be up. I've gots some homework and a photo to look for. Later!

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